Alone...

People ask me
Are you okOK
I say I'm fine
What they see if what the think
What they don't see is what I know
People tell me I look sad
I say I'm perfectly fine
And then make up an excuse
Really my head is screaming
I'M NOT OKAY!!
I hate this crap
It doesn't make any sense
Im so alone and confused
Uses and abused
No one knows it but me
I have to look at myself
Everyday they see me when they see me
At school and in the halls
Or on the weekends
They don't know the twisted thoughts
That I think of
When I'm alone
They don't know what I want to do
I wish I could talk to someone
But no one is there
I see them but they are miles away
I reach out
But no one sees me standing there alone
I'm always alone
I need a friend to help me
But it won't happen
No one has to go through
What I go through each day
It hurts me knowing
I'll never be okay