I Can't Cope - 27/10/2005

I can't cope with this pain,
I can't cope with my family not caring,
I can't cope crying,
And suicide has never been so daring.

I never wanted to go back,
But I'm so close,
I can't cope in this life,
And no one knows.

I can say me feelings over and over,
But my family doesn't care,
I'm so close to giving up,
So I cant say I wont, don't make me swear.

Family don't pretend you care,
You have proved enough,
I get more support from friends,
I can't cope trying to be tough.

Father,
I know you think I'm nuts,
But that really hurts, see,
I know you don't care how I feel, you have told me,
I can't cope can you agree?

Mother,
I know you care,
But it doesn't feel like it,
I'm scared of you, thatâ??s why I cant talk,
Since you took the hit.

Sister,
All you say is "I know",
But do you really?
I tell you how I feel and you don't seem to care,
You're making me feel silly.

I want to give up,
But I can't bring my self to it,
I don't want to depend on the knife,
I can't cope with another fit.

I want to let go,
And I take my chance,
Should I let go?
Or should I take another glance?

No longer can I cope.

©Elisha L. Brain