Don't Think I'm Not Listening....

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Having little hope to gain
Feeling very depressed,
Thinking the world is lame.

When feeling this way,
I feel like I need to cut,
My life I only have away.

I need someone to listen, a friend,
Someone they say,
They will be there till the end.

Later I find out,
They aren't,
Which makes me have doubt.

Rejected in many ways,
I feel very hurt,
And, my life is going astray.

I only wanted to find love and peace.
I never wanted to cut,
And, now I feel like I have a disease.

I don't know what wrong with me,
I am doing my best, just like everyone else.
I wish they'd appreciate it, and see....

Nothing I say is good enough
I try to talk to them,
Only if I could just feel a little love.

If only they would care,
Or just even listen,
When I need them to be there.

I don't need to be hurt in many ways,
I don't need to be judged,
From all the hurtful words you say.

I wish you'd realize someday,
That I am doing my best,
And, I'm dreading the day; today.

Again, I feel depressed
Rejected and hurt,
And, I'm doing my best.

I don't want you,
To tell me I'm bossy,
Or what to do.

I want you show me for who I am,
That you love me,
And, not act like you don't give a damn.

I hear every word you say,
So; again, don't think I'm not listening.
It hurts me in everyway.

I cry every night,
I feel insecure,
Needing a night light.

I have been hurt in many ways,
From being molested and raped,
So; please think before what you say.

The man told me I was beautiful,
If only words meant the truth,
Those words hurt and don't sooth.

Now, I know he was only trying to manipulating me,
Scared, afraid, confused, hurt,
Only at age 9, I didn't understand what it could be.

It happened for three years,
That I will have memories of,
Those moments, I cry tears.

I feel very depressed.
Again, don't be mad at me,
I'm doing my best.

If only you could have been there,
If only you could have saw, the pain,
If only you could be there to care.

Now, you know the truth,
That what people say,
Cannot always sooth.

Sometimes people lie,
And, while others hurt,
People just want to die.

I cry myself to sleep,
While feeling depressed,
And, wanting to cut deep.

I don't need to be hurt in many ways,
I don't need to be judged,
From all the hurtful words you say.

I hear every word you say,
So; again, don't think I'm not listening.
It hurts me in everyway.

Next time, mean what you say,
Think before you act,
It can hurt someone is someway.