Teenage Pregnancy

I've never been filled with these doubts of distrust
So key in relationships, it's a complete must
Jealousy fills my stomach and i don't understand why
It's tearing my insides apart, I just wanna die
Where is it coming from, it's never been there before
It's killing my spirit, pulling my heart down to the floor
I've never understood people who feel his way
I listen to them and frown in utter dismay
i love him so much, but this could ruin what we've got
Trying to say quiet, not giving in to this evil plot
Would he let another woman kiss him like I do
Would he like here all over him, covered t his body like glue
Would he tell her he would if he could, but he doesn't want to hurt me
Or would he deny her and ignore here every pathetic plea
Could he really do my wrong like that, and break my poor heart
Could he give up on us before we get to the great part
Will he freak about this baby, and cut us both loose
Or will he stick around and drink us away with his booze
I'm scared of what lies ahead and the way he'll react
I'm scared to gain all this weight, as a matter of fact
I should be thinking about him/her, this baby that lies inside
If he leaves me, I'm not sure how long we can hide
"A single mother" is an impossible life
I've only imagined doing this as his wife
Afraid of the future, I don't want to end it with a bullet
i feel so worthless, i want to cock it and pull it
Cause without him all I'm going to be is incomplete
Can't keep up without him, I'm gonna miss a beat
Voices inside tell me to keep going on
I stand in this ocean, currents hitting me so strong
I don't want to drag this on but I know I can't let him go
I couldn't possibly exist without him, nor face this world alone
Jealousy subsides deep within my mind
Can't see without him, I'm almost blind
I'm frightened to do this without him, I'm going to need a hand
Pregnancy at a young age, wasn't part of the plan