The note-**now finished

Today when i read that note
i knew what we had was broke
i looked into your eyes
silently asking why.
you seemed like you were okay
like it was just another day
but you say
it hurt you to cause me that kinda pain
to see how my tears fell
like the pouring rain.
well it hurt me like hell
as I'm sure you could tell
all during second period
all i could think was
'Can she be serious?'
i wanted to cry
i wanted to just lay down and die
but i held it together
because of my stubborn pride
but i know you saw those tears welling in my eyes
when you looked at me
i felt like you could see
right through the exterior
all the way to my heart
it seemed like you, too could feel
the way it was falling apart
when i read that sentence
you know:
"i don't think we should be best friends"
i thought:
"oh god, my heart will never mend"
and i really don't think it will
it makes me just wanna pop some pills
I'm tired of the way i feel.
god, when i read it
i got this sick feeling in my stomach
it was hard to keep my feelings in check
i just wanted to hug you
and never let go
i just wanted you to know
that she's not my best friend
that you will be til the end.
i also wanted to cry
and scream and yell
and tell you to go to hell
i had so many mixed emotions
you hurt me in a way you'll never know
because I'll never do it to you
i just cant believe you really wanna let go
you cut a slash deep in my heart
now it's bleeding
and i can't make it stop
you tore my world apart
this internal blood is filling me up fast
without you i cannot last
i guess what we had has come and it has also passed.
the emotional part of me is as good as dead
all because you let it all go to your head
and because you care so much about what they said.
i don't know how much more of this i can take
i know you're real and not a fake
but i can't just sit here and wait
so either your my friend or your not
this seems to be happening alot
you're holding my heart
in the palm of your hand
so either put it bak together
or leave it torn apart
just remember that i cannot wait forever...