The Last Day

***This poem I wrote right after my grandmother passed away... She was my rock... I miss her very much!***

I constantly replay that day in my head
I keep going back, I can't look ahead
I constantly think of the day you passed
I cannot believe that is was our last.

That day at the hospital, all I did was pray
I begged to the lord, to let you stay
That day at the hospital, I couldn't help but cry
When I heard the news, they said you would die.

They said it would work, and now they were wrong
I didn't believe them, you were way too strong
They said it would work, that you would only get better
That we had no reason to worry, that you weren't in danger.

I slowly felt overwhelmed with pain and sadness
I slowly felt my heart being shattered into pieces
I couldn't believe this lie I was given
I couldn't believe that you were gone to heaven.

I couldn't move, I couldn't feel, I couldn't see
I couldn't speak, I couldn't hear, I couldn't be
My life was destroyed and my heart was gone
I couldn't believe you left, how were we to move on?

I begged and pleaded for you not to leave
You were the only reason I wanted to believe
Now you were gone and you left us behind
The pain we're left with will make us go blind.

The loneliness I feel everyday since then
Eats away at my heart over and over again
Missing you and paining just to see you once more
It'll never be the same again, not like before.

Unfortunate for me time just doesn't stay still
And I am not yet ready to go against my will
I miss you so much; I just wish you were here
I have so much to say to you, so much that I fear.