Suicide Thoughts

by Chris Gross   Oct 28, 2005


I walk around in silence
Looking for a place to run
But my only escape is
That shinny blade on the table
as I stare at it, thinking about
the shit that happens in my life
I slowly reach for it
Inch by Inch, Foot by Foot
My arms start to shake
My hands begin to sweat,
I'm starting to have second thoughts
I put the blade down but it just keeps
calling my name over and over again
I pick it up put it on the tip of my wrist
Tears start to stream from my eyes
I cant handle it.
Are my answers right there?
Is suicide really the answer...
I applie more pressure as my mother walks in
shes screams in terror "what are you doing!?!?!"
I look up at her with bloody hand and say
"You and Daddy don't care anymore more"
"My life has no meaning to it... so
this is the best thing for us,"
"our family will be better with out me"
I move the blade from my wrist to my neck and I said to mom
"Thanks a lot for being there for me... I love you"
By the time help finally arrives I'm still in the living room
cold and lifeless
At my funeral no one came... I was just forgotten
like I wasn't important
then I realized
Suicide was the best thing that ever had happened to me

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  • 15 years ago

    by Kianna

    Great poem! not good you went through that but..the poem is amazing
    (5/5)

  • 16 years ago

    by Chris Gross

    Hahahah Thanks :) Yeah that was from my "dark" days back when I was sixteen, now eightteen my world is lighter now, if your life is down, just look up and know oneday you'll feel alive again :)

    "Look closely.
    Life isn't what it seems, sometimes.
    Act lonely, and just hope one day you'll feel alive."

  • 16 years ago

    by XxXTwistedxXxIllusionXxX

    Ah ah ah ahhhh!
    soo i was majorly about to cry...
    it is a "good" meaning behind it
    ((well good as in good it was good but not good because it isn't good, tehe if that makes any sense))

    but nicely done

    <3 whitney

  • 18 years ago

    by Thoughtless Consideration

    This is a wonderful poem...really emotional. but suicide is NOT the answer. hell is gonna be worse, right? and i swear that life WILL get better! just hang in there. please, trust me, life will get better...you just have to stay strong, then sooner or later people will begin to notice you, you'll ge thappier, and you'll think "thank God i'm alive."
    but aside from that, the poem was really great. a wonderful write.
    cheers

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