Over Him?

I sit and think about all the fun times we shared...about the good times and the bad....the times you were there and the times you weren\'t. I think about all the times we laughed when we stayed on the phone till 6:15 in the morning. You made me laugh about stupid things like the movie Forest Gump. You mad me laugh then i said i had to get ready for school. We said our goodbyes. Then three days later it was over. We got back togeter off and on for the next five or six months then it was over for good. The thing is you told my friend over the summer u still loved me and missed me and wanted to be with me. Then a month or two later you told me you didn\'t love me anymore. Till this day iam so confused because you ignored me at the begining of school...now your flirting with me! Why are you doing that? It hurts me everyday that passes. I realized something today...you were my first love...and if i can't get over you now then will i be over you in the next year or the next? I dont turn to my friends i dont like to bring up the subject because it hurts even more and i know the would get tired of me talking about it. So why cant i get over him?Why cant i ever stop thinking about him?Why is it i wish it was me in your arms when your holding her? I think i know why and i think because i still....LOVE you. (if you have any advice for me please email me or something.... thanks for reading!)