Not really pregnant

Not really pregnant
although been scared before
all of that can wait till i am thirty four
i want to go to college and get my diploma
but none of that would happen
if i had a baby to raise alone
that i could not do all on my own
i want to fall in love with a special boy
and not be plaid around with like a like a Little toy
i have big dreams
too far away it seems
i want to walk down that isle
and say my vows to that one special man
that will make my dreams all worth while
all this i know i can
just maybe
BUT NOT IF I HAD A BABY