Falling

I fall down alot.
not just in life.
mentally my brain
makes me hold this knife.

its the fall of myself.
the fall of my pride.
the fall of my strength
no more can i hide.

too tired to walk.
to tired to fight back.
to tired to think.
its the smarts i lack.

my mind is empty
ive fallen oh too often.
maybe in all my hardness,
i have began to soften.

i fall on the ground.
i fall to my knees.
yet no one can hear.
any of my plea's

i wish they could.
i wish i was dead.
i wish on that pillow.
i could rest my head.

ive become so tired.
too tired of falling.
so tired of no one,
ever hearing my calling.