This doesnt make sense

So scared.
you know i am.
i sit here wondering.
wondering if i can.

i know you cant.
i can feel it now.
i don't know why,
but i do, some way somehow.

this thing I'm scared of,
has done things before.
when I'd open the closet,
it would shut the door.

with me trapped inside.
trying to stay cool.
i cant help but wonder,
if i look like a fool.

should i go?
i know i have to.
but i didn't want to go.
unless its me and you.

we can do whatever.
just as long as your there.
we can even just sit there.
i really didn't care.