So much has happen but so little has changed
There is still the thought of death lingering in my head
There is still the anger and hate
The wanting to be alone
This is my last chance to make myself right for him
My little brother
So I put on a smile and pretend to be brave
Knowing inside that I'm just putting on a front
Wanting to really feel the change Just stop pretending on the outside
I want to I just don't know how
This is my last chance to make it right
How do you make it go away though when the one your missing isn't coming back
He's been gone for almost two years
Every time he comes I just want to die
Sometimes it seems like hes happier then he ever was with me
This is my last chance to just change
My last chance to just be care free
If only I could
