I wanted to tell youthat if you really wanted to be with me, then you wouldn\'t care who saw us together or anything like that. You would just be with me. But instead you always care about what other ppl think and sh*t like that. So if you wanna be with me, or if you think that there is some chance that we would be together anytime soon then tell me. And if you dont wanna be with me, then tell me so I can let go, and leave you alone and stop trying to hold on to something thats never going to be mine again. I\'m being a frikin b**ch to all these guys that wanna be with me just so I can be with you again. And if thats not gunna happen then I want you to tell me. Cuz I\'m not going to wait anymore. It\'s pointless to sit here and push all these guys away that actually care about me and want to be with me just so I can be with you again when it\'s not going to happen. Jack, when you said that you still loved me, you have no idea how happy that made me just to hear that. But I don\'t want to know any of that shit anymore if there is never going to be something between us because it just makes me miss you more and more. I dont want that. I want to move on and forget about everything in the past because I\'m obviously not benifiting from it. And I\"m not going to deny it, I\'m always gunna love you no matter what happens. And I know that know matter what, I\'m not going to feel the same way I did with you, towards anyone for a long time.And so Idk how you feel about anything and idk what you want. But unless you have a good reason, I\'m gunna let go, move on, and pretend like nothing ever happened between us even if that means that I have to pretend to be happy and act like nothing is wrong because sometimes, you just have to say f**k it, and move on.
