I look at you and hate what I see
I wish there could be a different me
But every time I try to change
My life you totally rearrange
I end up thinking of you
And what you have brought me through
I can't get over what I feel
I so badly just want to be real
How do I wake up and like who I've become
My whole world use to be so numb
That was before you sent me away
I was so afraid I wouldn't make it one more day
There are so many scars I am not sure I can heal
I want to finally be real
No more masking the pain
Or denying the rain
I don't know if I can tell them all the truth
But if some how I can help our youth
I will share it with you
And tell them all what you brought me through
I was dying over and over again
Waiting for them all to give up then
But you held me tightly through it all
Being sure you caught me where I would fall
How do you still love me
When I don't even like what I see
You say I am beautiful and eating is alright
But I can't seem to win this never ending fighting
I wish every girl knew what I knew
And how it won't get you through
But they will all see in your timing
And I am getting tired of rhyming
So I will end this with that
Telling everyone it is okay to have some fat
But you have to look to our father for your strength
He loves you and it goes with no length
