I faked this for all of you

A tear is held back tonight
A scream smothered by my hand
A wound created so deep
Welcome to my perfect land

This is what Ive faked
From now and many years to come
A land where I cant be me
A world who cant be one

Nothing is real anymore
I have to pinch myself to see
If the person in the mirror
Could possibly be me

So many things remind me
That we all fall apart
But what they dont realise
Is I was broken from the start

Everything I could ever have
Fell apart with a simple touch
I never knew it could be me
That could be miserable by this much

It took you o so long
To figure out who I was
Who I could be after a bad day
And this was all because

You thought that I was happy
And I was willing to be there
To help you when you were sad
To tell you lifes unfair

But I was the one that needed you
I needed you to be there
To help me when I was sad
I could tell you lifes unfair

So I take this razor blade
And run in against my wrist
Because there is one thing
I know I will be missed

But for the first time in my life
This is about me
So if you cant see I was suffering
You should wake up and see

I was girl who faked this
All for the sake of you
I faked this because
Of my love for all of you

©mlc