Wondering

I sit here wondering what to do.
Wondering where I would be right now if I had not fallen in love with you.

I know I wouldn’t be here truly sad…
And I wouldn’t be here getting mad…

How could you hold me and kiss me then just cheat on me…
If you were going to cheat then why didn’t u just let me be?

You wanted to cause the pain in which I have felt.
I can’t believe you have no guilt.

I remember the night we first kiss…
I keep thinking of the bliss...

The memories of our past enjoy haunting me...
They are like a chain in which will never set me free.

I have to move on; I have to find a new love that’s true...
For I can’t just go on thinking of you…

I try to hind my love for you but I catch my self looking at you then I start staring.
Just then I sit and wonder if you’re even caring…

To get u out of my head I need to get u out of my sight…
I know then and only then I will be all right…

You have said your good byes and moved on in love.
But you seem to be the only one I am still thinking of.

I want no longer to have this feeling.
I just want to move on and start heeling.

So happily I will take my life on this night
For now all I have to do is follow the light

The pain I hold in my heart I will leave in this place
I will leave quietly with so much grace

I know when I am gone you will just go on in life
You will not even think twice in why I picked up this knife

As I sit here letting my blood make a stain on the floor
I wonder who will be the first to see me the first to open that door.

I am really sorry for all the stains
And I am even sorrier for all the people who have all those pains

I will watch over you for above
But truly the way I felt for you was real painful love.

I am sorry but I just have to stop it all I have to leave
For with all this pain in my heart there is no room to breathe