Final goodbye

The pain i feel will never leave me
the guilt will always haunt me
but i know you are in a better place
happier and smiling
thats the one thing that has kept me going
all these years of crying
missing you but hating you to
you didn't think about me or family
why didn't you let me in?
all these things are in my head
they will never fade
your face it looks at me
i used be scared of seeing it
now i know your watching
to make sure I'm safe and happy
I'm not happy at all
i want you back
the things that hurt the most are
you went through it alone
i had to find you
and read all this in a letter
ill never forget the way you looked that day
pretty as ever
i was always jealous of that
so please if you can read this stop my tears
stop my pain and give me a sign you remember
me and all the good times.
your my dark Angel sparkling in a star
please keep a watch
i wont forget you
don't forget me
love you forever angel
this is our final goodbye