A.j! this is from me to you!

Yes i feel pain,
i want to end my life.
If some shit goes wrong,
i resort to my knife

but some how i realize,
my pain it does not stay.
and when i sit and cry hard enough,
i put my knife away.

the situation it gets old,
you've heard the story before.
but if i try hard enough.
i won't do it any more.

i try and try.
i really do.
and every time
i think of you.

i think of all you've said to me.
all the times you've heard me cry.
and sometimes how it gets so hard.
to look me in the eye.

i cut myself,
you know its true,
but you know
you did it too.

drama is something,
life is nothing without.
you just need something.
to let it all come out.