I want to see you fail, and
i want to see you shatter..
i want to hear you cry, and
i want to hear you stumble.
but as much as i want to see and hear you do these things,
i want to tell you how sorry i am for thinking these awful thoughts..
however such things cannot be said to someone like you, because they'll tear you apart.
so i shall keep these thoughts locked up, in a place so deep within my heart that they shall never rise to the surface again..
and although they bruise, and leave behind nothing but empty scars. these thoughts give me something to believe in.. they give me something to hold onto.
So whenever you see me without a smile on my face, please dont ask what's wrong, because my only reply is nothing..
and when i am smiling, be aware that its not real..
keep in mind that everything i was no longer exists..
keep in mind that everything i am, is just a phase..
keep in mind that everything i might be, will eventually fade,
until i am nothing but a pile of dust on your shoulder..
xoxo
