Ya'll cause me so much inner pain
That now I believe I'm insane
I hurt myself to try to deal
Yet even that I can't feel
All of the turmoil and strife
Makes me want to end my life
I feel so confused and alone
I live an unhappy life in an unhappy home
I feel like I'm near having a nervous breakdown
My smiles are more frowns
Yet I have no one with whom to talk to
Some pick me up but then once again...I'm blue
I'm just a burden to society and everyone else
Mostly I'm a burden to myself
I don't deserve to live here
That's the only possible cure
I don't know what to do any more
What with being called a liar, backstabber...w.h.o.r.e.
It's all my fault I take the blame
I'm tired of playing this neverending game
I always lose and end up in tears
Everything horrible becomes my worst fears
God hates me
Otherwise I'd be happy
I'm constantly having to promise not to cut
Sometimes I just can't promise, I'm in a rut
There are others worse off than me
But I just can't understand why I can't be happy??
