Hurts 2 be in Love

The pain is here,
Its back again,
Why did it start?
When will it end?

My hearts in pain,
Again I cry,
I love him so
I don't know why?

I'm just afraid
Hell find someone new
I'm So confused|_What do I do?

Should I just try,
To let him go?
What am I saying?
I don't know?

Yes, I do love him,
Yes, I do care,
Its hard to let go
When the feelings are still there

He tells me he wont be mad,
If I hook up with someone new.
He doesn't understand,
I don't want to

And as I keep typing,
Each word that I say,
Again I start crying
The pain wont go away.

Only if I knew,
It was going to HURT like this,
I would of back away,
Instead of giving into that kiss.

Please comment and tell me what i should do about this guy!!!