I want you to suffer
I want your heart to run out of breath
I want you to cry
Every day I want you to think about your last hour
I want you to be alone
Without friends, family
I would like the whole world
to turn their backs on you
I would like you to take a knife
and to cut your skin
like before
like when I did it
I want you to bleed
I want you to pay for all my pain
I want you to live of regrets
You will not know who to turn to.
When you feel terribly depressed
I want you to remember me
I want you to ask for my help
to guide you into the right path
And then I would like to turn my back on you
tell you no, that you're going to have to make it yourself
even if, you have to die
I want you to beg me for help
to tell me that you need my help
That I am the only person who can help you
I would like to reject you, see you cry
And then laugh at you, like you laughed at me
but no, i don't live for revenge
I don't feel any pain anymore
even thought i have nightmares about you
I am not going to lie
If one day you call me
to tell me nothing is all right anymore
I will be there for you
You will always be able to count on me
At any time of day or night
I will be there to help you
And that is the difference between you and me
I will always be there for you
But I know that you will never be there for me.
