I guess I'm not confused, I'm just internally fighting.
I tell myself to do something, but another part won't let it happen.
There's two parts to me: an optimist and a pessimist.
And no matter what I do, the pessimist always wins.
A part of me envisions that the future involves us both.
But the other part says we'll sail on different boats.
I've given her promises I made sure I've kept.
The bad part of me tries to make me break it.
I see two things, one good and one bad.
The bad vision's strong, and it's been making me sad.
For too long I've been in a depressed state.
it's hard falling in love, but very easy to hate.
I've come to realize, I'm relatively weak.
These emotions I'm feeling are both bitter and sweet.
I've let my bad side get the better of me.
But from now on... My good will be free...
--dunno [where] this goes... so i put it on miscellaneous.... uhm yah, wrote this 9/19..--
