Why is it so hard for you to understand
To understand that feelings that I have felt
The feelings of anger burning within me
The burning sensation that would not go away
It won't go away because you feed it back to me
You feed it by telling me those hurtful lies
The lies that I thought where so true
but yet you could never be true to me
now my heart is black as coal could ever be
you can never restore my heart to its pure color
all the pain that I always feel is caused by you
it is all your fault that I am shrinking inside
You make my mind go crazy with wild ideas
The ideas that is not healthy for any part of me
The knife that goes dancing on my arms and legs
The scares that remind me how alone I feel
Then there are days when I wonder why me why me
Is it all because God hates because I have sinned
and when I have time for confession I'm scared
I'm scared for telling everything that I might have done
everything in the lines of pain and suffering and loneliness
for just maybe He is punishing me by this torture
The torching of living in hell where nothing works out
Is it really my fault for the things i do I feel so weak
I blame you more then I blame God for this hell I am in
so all the things that have gone wrong it's all you
For someday I will show you that i can shine through
I'll shine brighter then I have ever shined before
For the light well burn your eyes and make you blind
and this time you well be the one who goes through hell
Someday all this hatred that I battle will go way
