How could you!

How could you even think of hurting me
i was only 13
and you were 35
how could you
that night you told me you wanted to
i thought you were joking
it did not register to me at first
i did not know you would take it so far
how could you ever try to take that from me
my precious young body
i could not believe you that night
you tried to take what was not yours
i was supposed to baby sit your kids
you were supposed to leave to work
i kept asking you if you were leaving
you kept telling me yes
but you never did leave
thats when you came into the house
sat in a chair right in front of me
your kids were asleep
your daughter sleeping next to me
you talked
i could not understand what you were saying
you came closer
my heart raced so fast
i was scared like a Lil rabbit
how could you touch me
what were you thinking
i knew you did that with your daughters
that was why i always came over
you would not touch them if i was there
you continued to talk
i did not understand
you touched my face
with your nasty ol hands
while i was pinching your daughter as hard as i could
in hope she would wake up and you would stop
how could you
you came closer
then i realized i could make you stop
make you stop by playing the game
i told you i was going to the bathroom
that i would be back in a sec
i ran out the side door
crying but trying not to
my dog lasie was outside
tied to something
i could not leave him
as i tried to get him off the leash
i heard you call my name
i almost gave up
but thank god i unchained lasie
i ran like never before
making sure my dog was running too
i was so afraid of you
how could you
i get to a friends house
not far from yours
i pounded on the door
no one answered at first
you kept calling me
i heard you
i felt as if my life was gone
thank god someone answered the door
i could not tell them what was wrong
no words left my mouth
they called my parents
they came without a stall
i could speak after a while and told all that was done
my dad ran out the door
i did not know he had a gun
when i heard my dad wanted to kill you
i thought to myself good thats what he gets
you ran out the window as my dad went through the door
why would someone who says they are inoccent run away
the cops came by to get a statement
oh what a night
they would not listen to me
then they left
i went home
slept with a knife under my pillow
i still do
a few months went by
an investigator came out
he ask what all happened
i told him
i told him everything
he had the nerve to ask me what was i wearing
how dare him
35-13=22
22 years older than me
how could you
you got away with child molestation
and they ask what i was wearing
i lived in fear for so long
but not anymore
i want to pay you back for this
maybe a bullet to your head
i wont do that though
some how some way
god will end your life of pain
not your pain but others pain you put them through
and when god does send you to that place called hell
no one will suffer anymore
but you
i hope you get you ____cute off and you bleed for ever

no child should ever have to live like this
this really happened to me
i want to share this with you all
so you can help stop it

thank you so much