Answers in The dark

I build myself up just
to get pushed back
down to the ground.

I make myself think
that this time things
will be different.

I ask myself why do
I keep going back
down that road.

Always building myself
up and allowing someone
to push me back down.

The answers lie in the
dark, will you turn on
a light for me to see?

Why do i keep doing
this to myself? why must
I fall for it every time?

Too many nights have I
laid awake with tears
streaming down my face.

So many days have I had
people play mind games
with me.

So many times that the
answers lie in the dark
and I can't see.

When will I see the answer
to how to not build myself
up to just falll back down?

When will someone help
me find the light that
reveals the answers in the Dark?