A Blurred Memory

As I watch the tears
Spill out of her beautiful blue eyes
I listen to her excuses
About how its too hard and she just has to die

While I hang on to her every word
I watch the blood drip off her wrists
I'm scared to make a move
So I try to be her conscience and tell her it doesn't have to end like this

She interrupts me with
Her wails and tears
Telling me I don't understand how hard its been
Throughout all of these years

So replying back in silence
I nod as if I understand
Calmly watch her arms get weak
And the blade drop from her hand

Slowly her eyes get heavy
As she watches her reflection hit the floor
Hanging on long enough
To hear her mom walk through the door

Barely hearing the screeching sounds
That her mother makes
Surprised in denial
About the way it is her mother takes

As shes rushed to the hospital
She smiles at the commotion
Shes almost in full relief
Shes almost reached her notion

She manages to hold on long enough
They tend to save her life
Now she just as the distant memory
The scars and all the strife

The girl who I was giving advice
Was me, myself, and I
I watched myself hit the floor
The night I tried to die

It was my mom who entered the room
And called the ambulance fast
Soon enough for them to bring me back
And now I have my life ahead and a blurred memory in the past.