I took the last pill God...

An empty world with empty friends,
With fake smiles and complete pretends,
Breaking down inside my head,
Everything I seem to fear or dread,
Tears run cold from my eyes,
I swear insanity makes me want to die,
I swear I'm insane and I should go,
Although my insanity to some doesn't show,
I try to hide my bruises and cuts,
From where I hurt myself so to the world I shut,
My glistening eyes and pursed lips,
Because I can no longer face this shit,
So as I fall over-board,
Take one last pill and hit the floor,
As the blood runs from my shirt sleeves,
And as no love can I receive,
I'm am found by no one left to wallow in blood,
Left to drag in the mud,
Heaven will not allow me in,
I am rejected to a world of darkness, of sin,
For although God forgives all,
I didn't ask for forgiveness though God I tried to call you,
I swear Lord I needed you so much in those last few moments,
For my heart was broken and bent,
But I was so alone Lord, Don't you know I died alone?
In the security of my own home,
Where I'd tried so many times,
To let my life be the sacifice,
But God you weren't there you never were at my side,
And I know it's my life and I do with it as I will,
But I needed you there even when I took the last pill..