Sucks?

The sun is out but i am so cold.i shiver dispite my life..i hate my self..if only i could die tonight..
Behind my smiles shed tears..i try to be open..but i cant about my fears..i am so upset with my self..if i could only be somebody else..
Some people dont understand me, thats okay...they think i have everything, but i dont..what i dont have is your happiness, i could cry about it all day..i guess god just made me this way..life is meant to be broken i think..because everything we have..dies in the end..everything we ever loved..beats us up..and we are heartbroken..everything we ever wanted leaves us to die alone.. everything that we had that used to make us happy..now makes us cry alone
the facts hurt the most..but i guess we have to deal with it..people like to laugh..but some just need to cry..give them a shoulder..dont be embarrassed..because in the end we all die.