Something i'm not looking for

You lost your job again
They said that today was the end

This happened last time dad
You got laid off, then it all went bad

this can't be happening...make it stop
How can you fall so quick while being on top?

You won't talk, mother is saying stuff once more
She's saying what she said before

The past is replaying inside my head
Everything that once was said

I'm so afraid of a damn piece of paper again
Written out to your "best friend"

You're depressed...you're thinking too
What am i going to do?

What if you want to leave once more?
What if you walked out and slammed the door?

I can't talk because I'm going to cry
Your eyes are telling me you don't want to try

Tell me this is a dream, it's a nightmare
Wake me up and promise you'll always be there

I'm so scared that the past is coming around
Everything already is falling down

My knees are shaking, i can't stand still
How can i stand tall when this feeling is about to kill?

What if the walls come tumbling down?
I'm not sturdy enough to get back around

I can't tell what is going to happen no more
I can't promise everything will be OK like before

I'm so scared to come home anymore
I'm afraid that I'm going to find something I'm not looking for