Dont understand

Cant understand this feeling that has rooted its self deep down inside.
Wish I could understand why at night I lay and cry
Use to think you would be all I need but now I'm not sure if you'll be the
Only thing I'll ever need
Promised me so much yet still its not enough
Lack the affection and that simple gentle touch
I'm Trying my hardest yet our relationship has yet to move
Wish you could make up your mind it will make it so much easier to choose.
My fears are slowly turning into reality as I feel you drifting away
don't know if its an illusion or if you truly no longer want to stay
Wish my tear wouldn't fall so hard and I wish I could stop letting you take down my guard
Tried to build barriers to keep you from getting to me but it never seems to work
Thought every thing would be different but nothing ever seems to change
Just wish it would because I'm tired of things staying the same.
By: Adrienne