Just to Die

I just want to be alone,
Here to live on my own,
I dont' want people to care,
Or realize that I'm there,

These scars remind me,
What was meant to be,
And imperfect life,
Full of heartache and strife,

The smiles glanced my way,
Are starting to mean nothing each day,
Each tear that's cried,
Is one wishing to die,

Each word you say behind my back,
About all the talents I lack,
The rumors blown way out,
Just makes me want to shout,

All they see a girl so sad,
No happiness just completely mad,
She's not normal she's insane,
Causing herself so much pain,

No one see behind this mask,
What she wants her special task,
Die a quick death and be free,
Be myself just be me,

No more judgmental peers,
Just clapping and cheers,
Reaching her goal no longer a lie,
All she ever wanted was to die.

©Samantha Jayne Reed
Wrote on November 2nd, 2005