Everything is changing
From colors to shades of gray
Each night I fall asleep
Afraid to start another day
This blade drags across my arm
The pain, it feels euphoric
The urge crawls beneath my skin
Getting harder to ignore it
I see the blood, intense deep red
The trickle down my arm
I do it to feel better
Not intending to do harm
It's almost as if I like it
I want to feel the pain
Even though in the end
The tears will still remain
The slicing and splitting
I get tingles up my spine
Nobody has a say in this
The control is all mine
Sometimes I want to stop
But then I get the urge
To see the scars and lines
And to feel my blood surge
Maybe I should try harder
Maybe I should give up
The only thing that makes me calm
When my life is out of luck
The adrenaline and energy
The cold tingle dripping slow
In the end I've figured out
There's just one way to go
