A Life Lead - 30/10/2005

A life lead by lies,
With no faith in life,
Wanting the pain to ease,
Scared of going back to the knife.

A life lead by no understanding,
Feeling sick by every moment,
wondering if I can get better,
Living every second of torment.

Pale all over,
Feeling like I'm going to throw up,
Never ending headaches,
About to drop the cup.

I have no one I can talk to,
No one I can trust,
No one wanting to hear,
Denial of who I lust.

Never ending lies,
And being ignored,
Running away, over and over,
Not being adored.

Wondering if they care,
Curious on what next,
Scared of where I apprently belong,
Wanting to cry of my lonely text.

Wondering if I will faint,
And who will care,
If I'll Sleep,
Or if I will stay and live in a scare.

Feeling unhealthy,
Wondering what next on the list for me,
And if this will ever end,Not wanting to hear what I hear and see what I see.

Don't know who to talk to,
Who will really listen to me,
Who will be there when I need,
And who will let me be.

Thinking if this is my time,
Yo leave in peace, and let go,
No longer hold on to the nothing I had,
And that will be so.

©Elisha L. Brain