I Hate You

I hate you for making me feel like this
I hate that you just walked away
I hate you for pulling me close just so you could push me away

I hate the way you held me tight,
even while we slept at night
I hate the way your smile makes my heart skip a beat,
or that you made me feel so complete

I hate your stupid painting that I loved and
you made me feel apart of
I hate how you always explained so I understood

I hate the way you held my hand when we were out
I hate that you said I was your girlfriend when all along you were walking out

I hate you for telling me you loved me even if it was only once
I wish I hadn't heard
I hate you for crying the night you first hurt my heart
I wish I could forget it

I hate all the little things you did that made me think you cared
I hate that your eyes are so blue and SO easy to fall into

But mostly I hate that I don't really hate you at all
and that I DON'T MATTER TO YOU!!!!