Dear those few who would even notice,
I couldnt bring myself to do it. I couldn't follow through with the pain. Hurting me only meant hurting those who I love. Although for some of you it would be easier without me. I also know what it feels like to be missed by few. I know what it feels like to me missed by someone you cant have. To lie in bed at night and know that youll never be able to bring the ones who left back. To cry yourself to sleep because you dont know what else to do. I dont want to be that because of that feeling; the same feeling that haunts me in the middle of the night. Becoming the burden on all of you isnt how I want to be. Im sorry for the way I am. I never ment to be this way. Trust me, I want to be a better person. I want to be happy. So for the time being, Ill just wait. So dont worry about me because for now Ill still be right here.
