A Feeling

A million words cannot describe how I feel inside.
An inner sadness so deep that even I cannot understand
I'm screaming for help, but no one can hear,
my conscious eating me alive.
I'm slowly torturing myself,
the blood rushing through my veins,
I hold my breath, waiting,
I don't know when to stop.
My eyelids become heavy,
my life flashes back and I remember why,
why I use to want to live, why I use to laugh.
I take one quick, fast breath,
I feel myself revive.
And even though I still feel lost,
I do not want to die.
Cause even if I think life is an endless living hell,
there is so much more to learn,
I'm just too young to go, I'm just too young to know.