I want to die

I'll never be good enough,
I won't even try.
Every night I sit alone,
I want to die.

Stick a knife through my heart,
Stick a needle in my eye.
Nobody can see me,
I want to die.

I can never replace him,
As he floats in the sky.
Thinking about death,
I want to die.

These thoughts cross my mind,
Every day and every night.
The knife IS through my heart,
But now I DON'T want to die.