Short Thoughts

The flesh perforated to expose the beating heart of loneliness
Passes my lips are the soft tones that sink their teeth in to my love
It's midnight when the longing fills my stomach with the lead weight of reason
It speaks to me through the trickle of red that finds itself pooled at the deepest point of my shallow being
This war is against myself and I can feel what I'm not truly feeling
Breath by breath, I stop the beating of my heart to cut the perceptions with a razor of harsh reality
This is my home, this is my love, it pains me to the point of cascading tears
Often, I've wished for something more tangible, but only succeeded in destroying pieces of my memory
My memory...
Without it, I would be a simple apparition caught somewhere between dreams and reality;
The gray space that is found between the lines
Gray space, gray matter
Listening to time drip through the crack of the world
Soft time, soft watches
I persist
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This clock skipped five beats in order to land where it has
Fallen from grace like a lover fallen from the light of the heavens
I'm symbolically starting to evaporate and cut away the tether that connects me to the mortal coil
Je suis malade, I don't need or want this collapse, it is not becoming of me to live in this way...
This way is the barren letter behind which I hide my eyes of what beauty only tomorrow can understand
This drug is coursing through my rough veins, that I do not understand
Ta ma I ngra leat, but you cannot know that because it does not translate in to all languages,
What does it say?
I would say to ask the mirror, but it is scattered and broken on the wet floor of rampant knowledge
Sink your teeth in to this skin, draw from it the immortal essence of claustrophobia...
It will listen
I will listen
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White light
I've seen it in my dreams
The purest color set to match the purest heart
When will this light cease to shine down upon my fragile soul?
I am ready to go home to love and feel the love fill me
Ta ma I ngra leat...
I am in love with you