Words That are Cheap (There are so Many)

Going home to break apart; separate at the edges to split the frays
Charred and blackened by the flame which licks us as a hungry entity
Warm like a lover's embrace in the cold night, the flame is attractively built
Rouge is such an incredible sensation when placed on the lips pressed against my own
But it is only a feeling I long for and cannot touch
Reality torn to shreds by these sharp talons of perception
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God said to me, when I answered the telephone
'How are you doing? Can I help?"
I hung up on him
I didn't need the advice at all, not from someone (something) so apathetic
I don't hate
I just can't take the advice that does nothing to light the dark corridors of my mind
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The thought I ended began to tear me down when it fell from the flame down to the barren earth
It missed the water and stayed aflame for far too long for it to ever come back
I don't pretend to participate in the constraints of life
But I can feel her aura surround me and it feels good
For once
To breathe
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The sadness of aftermath is something never truly taken in to consideration when we tear apart reason
Reason is weak
I am weak
My left hand helps my right hand to bleed these thoughts on to the page
One weak
Two strong
But not strong enough
Not enough to quiet the clicks and whirs left herein
Where are the lies?
They live and breathe in my skull
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No
There's no light in this cavern of shadowed thought
Not even the dull flicker of a tea-light candle
Just nothingness in expansion permeating through and through
To the places where I cease having the ability to feel
What have I done?
Where have I gone?
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Every time I close my eyes
It gets harder to open them
They stick together and promise not to spill a drop because
Then
I might look like less of a man than all the others
Less and less until I was no more
What a stupid thought
Why should emotions make me weak?
They do not
As far as I can see
Those other "men"
So infallible as they are
Cry themselves to sleep at night because they don't understand
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No
There's no light in the darkest caverns of my mind