So you'll turn on your depressing music, mope around your room,
And let this rejected feeling consume.
Lie on you bed and stare at your ceiling,
Over the girl that left you with this feeling.
Get up to push replay on the saddest song you've ever heard,
So you can scream the song, word for word.
You can feel horrible for yourself, tell yourself how she wasn't worth it,
But she was the best you've ever known, you hate to admit.
You love to hear her laugh and see her smile,
Everything she did made life feel worthwhile.
That was what you looked forward to everyday,
At this moment, you'd die just to touch her in any way.
Now she left you wanting to die, right where you are,
And you used to tell her how she was your star.
You hold on to those precious memories, they're slipping through your fingers,
The smell of her hair on you pillow, it still lingers.
Thats all you have, all you know now,
And all your heart will allow.
You want to throw that picture across the room of the two of you,
But you know it'll just make things worse, these feelings won't subdue.
But at the same time you want to fall to your knees,
Wishing this'll pass with ease.
You'll cry like you've never done before,
You can't take the pain anymore.
She was your angel, she was your everything, your girl,
Her beautiful blue eyes and soft brown curls.
You've never needed her more than now.
How could you let this happen? How?
Now he's got the wheels turning in your head,
All you can think about is what he said.
Is that how you really are? Is this what you've become?
You hate yourself now, left feeling numb.
Is that what they think? This is how everyone sees you?
What were you thinking? If only you knew...
This is never what you wanted, you never meant to hurt any one,
But it's too late now and it can't be undone.
Now someone you cared about is hurt, you cant do anything about it,
A knot in your stomach, tightly knit.
You know this decision was best for you but you hate to know someones hurting,
It's all your fault, and it's so disconcerting.
You know that if you try to fix it you'll only make it worse,
But you can't help but think how he was you first.
You love to kiss him but you only hurt him more when you do,
You don't want this to be any harder to get through for either of you.
You love to be around him and but you cant stand to see him in pain,
You know what your both thinking but you have to refrain.
You know you can't touch him because even your finger tips stab at his heart,
If only it wasn't so hard to just be apart.
His words bite hard but you know you deserve it,
You can't help but feel worse, bit by bit.
And all the while, you know his pain is so much more than he can say,
"Please let this pass..." All you can do is pray.
So many songs remind you of him but you can't help but play them,
He was so much apart of you, God, why did you do this to him?
You don't deserve him and he didn't deserve this,
But you still sometimes reminisce.
How he looked at you like he'd never let you go,
Look what you did to him, even so.
