True Lies

Everyday, I lie to myself,
each day gets easier to believe,
I lie so much, my lies seem to be true
One day, how youll be with me.

My memories seem to be fading away,
With each painful, long, everlasting day.
I tried my very best to forget you were gone
But what I forgot didnt stay forgotten for long.

For the first time in a long time
Those long forgotten tears were awaken
Reminding me of the memories
Long lost feelings had been mistaken

When you first broke my heart to pieces,
I had to find a way to mend.
I took my thoughts, and lied to myself
Soon I was living a world of pretend.

Everything was perfect I thought,
I pretended my heart my still one
But when I saw you, the lies I made myself believe
Unraveled and came undone.

I cant believe I tricked myself
To believing you did nothing at all
When in reality, you shattered my world
Built me up, just to let me fall.

Seeing you again since the pain I still remember
Made me realize, my heart is breaking for you,
Open up your blinded eyes
See how my crying for you is true.

These raw emotions, resurfaced once more,
Reminding me of terrible, horrible pain
What I lost was your love, but still i love you deeply
My loss was actually my gain.

You made me realize, that my love was real
That I loved you with all I had in me,
And that nothing can take those memories away
Even lies I made up,
To forget memories of what we used to be.

Ill just keep waiting for you to come back
And one day I finally wont be sad,
Its just so hard to forget those memories
And the truth of love we actually had.