My Sweet Suicide

To whoever found me first, I'm sorry, I truly am
I just couldn't go on living this life a complete and utter sham
Before my loved ones see me
I beg just one last plea
Clean my blood and close my eyes
Don't let them see me filled with lies
Tell my family I love them all
It's not their fault I took my final fall
Tell my mommy she did her best
She just couldn't help me, like the rest
Warn my daddy of all he could lose
Please, just sit him down to break the news
Tell my brother he meant the world to me
And I'll love him always, no matter where we'll be
To my baby sister, tell her what you will
But tell her she'll be with me always and forever still
To my baby girl, my sweet little sissy
Tell her I miss her, and please don't grieve for me
To my sister I spill out to everyday
Tell her to keep her faith and never lose her way
To my other sister, tell her she really helped me through
Tell her it would've happened, there was nothing she could do
Tell my big sister I'm sorry I didn't stay strong
But to heal my pain would just take too long
Tell my aunt I'm sorry I couldn't compete
Life was just so hard and filled with much deceit
Stranger please, send these messages for me
Tell them I'm happy now, I've been let free
If they cry, give them a shoulder to do so on
Assure them I'll be here, even though I'm gone
Now in my casket, don't let my bruises show
How I died, no one needs to know
Place 'I'm sorry' on my stone
And 'I'm happy now, I've been sent home'
I'm sorry to ask such things from you
There's just so much I needed to do
One last thing before I go
And I want this last scar to show
Please carve 'fake' upon my skin
And let everyone know what I've been