Stephen.... it hurts

I'm lying in my bead
thoughts running through my head
every time i think of you
my eyes glaze over
like sun on water

everyday i smile
just smile and say I'm fine
but really it's killing me inside

i think of you
and it hurts so bad
when i think of the life
i could've had

when I'm on my own
all alone
my heart brakes
the thought of you makes
my soul wanna leave my body

go search
for someone else to love
so that i can get over you

you turned my life
upside down
you made me cry
and made me frown
at the same time
you made me smile

now all I've got left
are memories
of you and me
in our past days

your not here
anymore
you killed me right down
to my core

now i weep more and more
now i miss you more and more