The Holiday I hate

A special day for everyone
For all the world to see
A holiday to have some fun
With no effect on me

Children are all playing
Laughing, running all around
Families are all having fun
But I am deaf to any sound

the joy has no effect on me
I feel empty all the same
No smiles can engulf my face
As they all lean on my name

It's hard to understand at all
And what anyone expects
They give up the little things
And yet I give them all my best

Once I could've changed it all
But I was seconds just too late
And this has forced my life to be
The holiday I hate