Never be the same...

The razor cuts deep
as the sun begins to die
eternal darkness of gray-
the unforgiving color of my eyes
night is the only time i am safe
my tears fall towards my frown,
and drip down to the ground,
next to my motionless heart

an angel sings my song
as the spyders crawl inside the thoughts that haunt my dreams
i will never be the same
my pain is never my gain

i will scream hope until i can scream no more
but the terror i hold inside is making me weak,
i cannot go on forever
anger... not anymore
just lying awake feeling sorry...

it is true...
i am my own enemy
but how do you change that?

it is raining now,
and i am so cold and alone.