Trapped in this thing called\"Life\"

Im trapped in this thing called life
filled with nothing but my strife
its like no matter what I do or say
I will neve r be able to chage my ways.

I lay in the darkness
with nothing to see
dont you understand that ths is me?

My arms are bloody, my eyes are black
Thisis something I cant change back

I am bleeding on the floor
I cant take i t anymore.

I see the knife once again
These letters and marks I grave into my skin.

Im lying here with nothing more
than my lifeless body on the flor,

All I can think about
is what they will see

when they open that door
and find me

will they ask me why
or will tears just fall from their eyes

will they fall to the floor
and break down by my side

or will they bury me and pretend it just couldnt be.

will they believe I killed myslef
or think that someone had to have helped

Either way here it goes, one more slit and its on the ground my body will hit.

When they come t he will see their daughter so sad and lonely with the knife next to me...
and wonder If only..If only