As I lie in the bed where you once held me in you loving embrace I begin to realize that nothing will ever be the same. I can lay there all night imagining your there with me, but then comes that moment, that heart wrenching moment, that reminds me of the undecievable truth and the truth is; your gone. How is it aht I have not yet come to terms with your \"goodbye\"? Why is it aht I am the only one still longing for your kiss, the only one still trapped in your embrace? I walk around knowing that people are reading my insides, I know they think that I am a fool, but I coouldn\'t help it, I had no control over me falling for you. You told me you cared and I was the one you needed and most of all the one y ou wanted. Oh, all the lies. i should have known. I loved you will all my heart and soul, I needed you more than I showed, and oh how I wanted you. I never lied to you about what I felt unfortunatly, for you you cannot say the same. It kills me inside everytime I see your smiling face it forces me to realize that I was the one blocking happiness form your life when for so many years I thought I was your reason to live. You are my reason to live and now that your gone I find it a fight to get out of be in the morning, its ac onstant battle to keeping going on with my life. You moved on so quickly you say your \"in love\". How can this be when you told me that it was you and me and never would we be apart. Now, I am here, all alone standing with no one to hold and your over there staring at her with that look that I so desperatly watn to be mine, again. Can you not see that you belong with me? It\'s apparent to me that I never meant anything to you, it was all just an illusion, but the show is over and I am no longer your object of deception. Please, don\'t get me wrong I still long to be yoru puppet on a string, I swear I would give anything just to be held in your hands one last time.
