I want so much to call you when i start to cry.
I want to hear your voice , as my life i Deny.
If you were, is what runs through my mind.
I can't change my life ,but i often wish i could try.
This hell frozen world is slowly disintegrating.
I wake to the songs of you and I.
Then Imagine us dancing long into the night.
If you were here i wouldn't worry about the guys time after time rejecting me, and turning myself esteem to nothingness.
I want to yell at you for all the STUPID things.
Tell you i hate loving you.
Sometimes I see you standing there then i start to lose my place.
Every person I like reminds me of your smiling face.
Shouting at the top of my lungs i want to ask you why... you'd do this?
Sometimes i wonder why I've always loved you this much.
This aching feeling won't go away.
I think about you constantly and have this smile that won't go away...
Then my tears flow again twice as much as you call to tell me about your weeks "score" that hurts me so much more.
Jealousy overcomes me, you're stabbing words at my heart.
your laugh taunts me.
I dont know were to start.
I slam the phone like you dont have a clue.
You call right back saying.."What did I do?"
Rip my heart throw it on the ground.
I shut you out, like mute on T.V I turned off your sound.
My eyes grow teary and fill my eyes..
Lyrics repeat non stop in my head as you, cant stop asking me why...
"I'll take you to to the top of this building and just push you off...run down the steps so I can see your face as you hit the street..."
-- This ends in not talking for weeks, but I think about you despite the self control you lack.
I take you back.
The misery you put me through.
The things you've said..destroyed me.
But no ones perfect..so it seems
I love you
