What am I to do?
My life is so hard
All these emotions playing ever since the start
Have only a few things to say before my life fades away.
There are so many secrets that you dont know
So many mistakes that only seem to stay
I try and move on
And learn through what I have been through
But its just not that easy
It just holds you down and locks you up.
You dont know what its like so dont try and judge
You think you know all but the pain I have been through
You couldnt even touch
To be kicked down by words so many times and to lose all your strength
For every little thing to be blamed.
I look at photographs its so hard
To see how I used to be without them scar covered arms
The smile on my face which was true
Unlike the fake ones I now have to use
The laughing has turned into tears
The smiles into a frown
And yet I remember saying once before nothing can bring me down!
So is this really me?
Is this all Im going to be?
Is this what you wanted?
To bring me down with all the teasing
They say to also be strong but how do I do that?
Its not as easy as every one thinks and seems!
If you could only know what you have done
And know you keep doing
Put yourself in this spot and try and last
Im stronger than you and yet its still hard
Next time you do this to me
We will just slit your wrists and leave you in pain
This is my misery
But I guess youre right maybe I deserve it
So I will punish my self and thats what behind my sleeve
So dont judge on that
Thats my only relief
And youre the blame you did this to me!
There is more to my life to take it on me so hard
But when I get back up
You have to knock me back down to freaking hard
Even the things I cant help about me
You should realize do you honestly think all the words with change me?
It wont it only makes me worst
Just to let you know!
You cant f**king change me
With all them words that hurt
